Remind Me For I Cannot Remember!

I do not even remember me.
How was I before I met you?
Someone remind me of how I used to be.
Refresh my memory and make me dream anew.

Which were those doors that I'd unlocked,
before I betrayed my dreams for you?
Take me back to the road I walked,
With purple hues and skies of blue.

Take away from me this undying regret.
that all those times are now unreal
Stupid little girl did you ever expect
You'd lose yourself in promises surreal?

I do not remember me at all.
Tell me, who was I before I met you?
Please, oh God, remind me before sunfall,
else, how will I find my destiny true?

No Title

Its not me, its you.
'Cos of you they think its me.
'Cos of you I think its me!
But, I am ready to take the blame,
For I feel guilty too, I do.
Its not me, its you.
'Cos of you I became you
And then they really had reasons
To think its me and blame me too.
You never tried to undo
And I do not know how to.
So, I am stuck with you and
I am stuck with me too...though it was never me, it was you!

You Don't Worry

If God has sent me into this world
It is not so that I be unhappy.
If God has sent me into this world
I am certain there is a purpose to it.
Even if I can never figure out what,
He is there and He knows.
So, I need not worry.

Change

I changed my coffee order today
Will it taste better or worse, I am not sure
All I know is, it was time
that I tried a different flavor!

Love

I thought it was raining
So I thought I'd stop for a while.
I thought I'll enjoy the rain a little
So I stood there with a smile,
Enjoying the rain pouring down on me.
The water started rising and soon I was submerged.
The water was so beautiful, so blue.
Under water I saw everything anew!
I could breathe under water!
I thought I was a fish!
It was like I always belonged here.
With eyes wonder-struck and hair flowing wild, I just stood there.
I stood there for how long, I cannot remember
but I think many seasons passed.
I closed my eyes and felt at peace.
And then I wasn't submerged anymore!
I opened my eyes in confusion because
I did not know why there was no water anymore.
The rain continued but the water never rose again.
I thought I was a fish, I thought I belonged under water,
My dear blue water!
Where did you go?
For a second I could not breathe without water.
What happened?
I waited, full of hope,
Maybe the water will rise again, take me again?
I stood there waiting for how long, I cannot remember.
but I think many seasons passed.
It took me ages to realize that
It had long since stopped raining.
I was just standing under a tree!
My soul is drenched and shivering
But I continue to stand,
But I continue to wait.
Maybe it will rain, once again.
Maybe if I wait too long, I will finally belong...

Lost Memories

The dark recess of your mind is a dangerous place to be.
Never go within or you might end up like me!
'Cos you never forget, you just discard.
It's not like it's not there, It's just that you cannot see!
So forgive if you can for forget you just won't,
You will only forget that you never forgot,
Never remembering that you never forgot is the key!

And what if?

And what if there is no fate,
it is only the choices we make?

And what if there is no God,
each one working of their own accord?

And what if there is no you and me,
nothing of what I dreamed could be?

What if there is only one go, no hit and trial?
And just what if, God forbid, What if I am in denial?

Are they working?

Them pills do work
Them pills don't work
I cannot really say
But yes, I feel happy today!
Is it them pills or is it the day?
Is it the bright sun shining over my head?
I am not really certain but perhaps
I can say I am doing okay!
I find myself writing after a long long time
Am I finally awake?
I hope so, I ain't sure
but this much I can say
I do feel happy today!

What is the real right?

My dearest anonymous faceless reader...my silent reader...my nonexistent reader... I have a question.

What is the REAL right?

Is it the 'right thing to do' or is it the 'right thing for me'?

There is much confusion. Please help clear it!

What IS the real right?

Order out of Chaos...

You are Left Aligned, Right Aligned and Centered, all together,
creating such chaos that you 'naturally' Justify!!

Airplane View

You are asymmetric, you are raw.
Theres such beauty in your rough edges.
You are haphazard but you make so much sense.
You make contrasts seem related.
You merge colors without mixing.
You create harmony out of complete imbalance.
There is something so perfect about your imperfection.

You are Nature!!

Take Me Away To The Land Of Dreams...

I see you there with your arms outstretched
Beckoning me to the land of dreams
Where the sky emits a milky hue
With all shades of blue singing to you.
Trees stand still with quivering leaves
Glistening bright with drops of dew.
The air is chilly but warms you within
Without moving, dreamy fragrances it brings.
You smell the woods where fantasies begin.
Is that a firefly or did I just see tinker bell?
With naked feet I step in the lake
Which flows bright blue right between me and you.
My feet touch pebbles cold, round and soft,
Silk muslin water makes soft lapping sound,
It's a song, to water, ultramarine fairies taught
And now rings in our ears so clear and loud.
I lift my gown and walk to you.
Your face glows bright in the milky hue.
The world has slowed down just for us,
I take your hand in the land of dreams
And together we marvel at the nature’s treat
While the world is covered with the blanket of sleep.

CWG - Khatron Ka Khiladi?

They are scared of the rains because water can cause floods, they are threatened by mosquitoes because mosquitoes spread dengue, they are worried about security, never know when you might be gunned down and now, they are scared of the sun because, perhaps, the Delhi heat might cause them a heat stroke! I wonder how we have survived here for so long!

Yes! The Commonwealth Games, 2010 seem to be woe-stricken this year as each day brings a new problem! It’s like one of those saas-basu sitcoms where the family members face endless troubles throughout their lives (which are eternal of course, but that’s not what we are talking about here). Four countries that are threatening to pull out of the more-than-three-hours-long CWG opening ceremony, due to the discomfort of dilli ki garmi, are New Zealand, Scotland, Canada and Isle of Man.
Well, I just want to say one thing. When clean toilets and rooms without dogs dancing on athletes’ beds, is too much to ask off us, what do you think can be done about the weather, the nature, something that we have no control over? The most we could have done was to ‘green’ Delhi, which we did, as planned. And, we promise, the beautification will last at least for the 12 days!

With the Games just one day away, the queen’s baton has completed its lap in Delhi, after travelling all over the world in the last 11 months. Though her baton is here, Her Highness is not. After all, there is no Kohinoor in India anymore. What is left are politicians no one wants, corruption everyone despises, beggars people ignore, slums that drown in floods and garbage that is everywhere (Of course, for the Games, everything is being cleared off the streets, hidden from view of the tourists. We Indians love to sweep things under the rug, don’t we?)!

Hopefully, things will go smoothly and Delhiites will be saved from further embarrassment. And, if something goes wrong we can always ‘hang’ Kalmadi, right? Didn’t he say so himself? “Hang me if I am proved guilty after the games”?

Because...

Because the world is round.... it turns me on...

Because the wind is high.... it blows my mind...

Because the sky is blue.... it makes me cry...

Because...

Yeh Hai Dilli Meri Jaan!!

I am just beginning to understand how appearances can be deceptive and beauty is only skin deep. For how long do you think the ugliness residing within will be willing to stay just inside? In some way or another it is bound to show, perhaps by the will of the water Gods or maybe our politicians are enough for this? Why trouble the Gods, eh? The one to give me this knowledge and such great wisdom are the Common Wealth Games, 2010 that are taking place in none other than my very own dearest Delhi. How, you might ask? (Unless, of course, you already know, which I am sure is the case here!)

I see the new face of Delhi and I fail to relate to it. I liked you better my dear when I knew exactly where your pot holes and ditches were located. Now, everything is covered by a thick layer of such foundation that I don’t even come to know when I step upon one of those old ditches before walking off, oblivious. Obviously, a ‘few’ times when the rain Gods blessed us and your foundation came off is negligible, right? At least, for a few seconds, I saw the old you and it was such a treat to my eyes!

I see the new shiny Delhi, if I close my eyes most of the times while driving. The beautiful landscaping, the smooth roads, the shiny long cars and the bright night lights, all look so enchanting. I see the new sparkly metro, but only from a distance because the crowded platforms make me ill, the long new flyovers that I am not allowed to drive on (perhaps that’s because they are not ready yet?) and the revamped stadiums that I’ve only seen in pictures and I doubt I’ll ever get to see for real. Everything is brand new apart from the politicians of course, who are still the same. Sometimes I feel my eyes sting with all the brightness and the sheen. Oh wait, is that the sheen of Kalmadi’s sweaty face as he screams, “This is a conspiracy!”?

I can only take relief in the fact that the clock will strike twelve sooner or later and you will have to return before the pumpkin turns back to a pumpkin. (As it is, the Prince is not even coming! Nor the Queen! Nor the British! Nor the Canadians! Anyway, moving on…) The foundation will all come off and you will become the Delhi that I always knew! Thank God for that!